When I ‘other’ myself, I disconnect from me I feel totally lost and panicked, Alarmed, and alone What do I mean by, ‘othering’ myself? For me, ‘othering' myself means that my experience of myself, in the moment, is as a kind of object; I’m outside myself looking at myself, and evaluating myself through the eyes of my cultural conditioning. It also occurs in the moments when I am being treated as an object by others. When I’m experiencing myself as an object in my mind, I look in a mirror to evaluate myself. My eye is seeing my reflection and deciding whether to approve of the image I see or not. In those self-objectifying moments, (sometimes lasting most, if not all of a lifetime), we are disconnected from our self-adoring, self-mattering, self-attuned, awareness. Instead, we are separated from ourselves, looking at ourselves , seeing ourselves through the image-conscious ego; critical, analytical, concerned with how we appear, and how others may see us. We are con...
Life is change, energy flows, and attention creates. By the movement of our attention and the choice of our focus, we freshly create our experience in each moment. I've found that when we actively attend and explore through our senses, we bring greater awareness to all aspects of our being and consequently into all areas of our lives. By sharing my personal explorations, observations and experiences I hope to inspire a more vibrant Aliveness in others.