Radical Aliveness

I don't have the life companion, or soul mate that I desire. But do I have myself. And I can choose to be my own soul mate and life companion in a tangible, supportive, and consistent way. I also wish I had more consistent and frequent encounters with folks whom I do  know and are in my 'inner circle'. Even so, I can show up fully, vulnerably and authentically with whomever I do personally encounter. I can engage each person, even if there is only ever this one meeting; with my whole, undefended heart and soul. I can listen to their heart and share my own.  So in this way,  I do have a life companion, (me) and we have unlimited opportunities to meet our fellow humans and build intimacy in each and every personal encounter, creating the supportive and loving family we desire. 

a struggle a lost brother uncertainty an emptiness is there Loneliness for self no reflection. "Who am I?" am I enough? no sense of security; of belonging No one knows and No one talks. Alone. The object of her self-rejection: Sexual frigidity Bulimic behavior An abortion at age 22 And she drifts.. She Chooses Her Self Healing Journey Dancing and Feeling Searching for Love-- inside herself. Through persistent effort, unfolding step by step The Gift of Healing happens in relationship. She finds her will. She surprises herself. She is Amazing! Celebrating, Honoring That she is Enough She is valuable ! It's OK to not know. Leading is a Gift She moves ahead claims her Mastery shares her Passion Trusting          even in the not knowing.  

When I am connecting to Source Every thing is my support. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ When I think  you  are being self-centered I have left  my  center. Nothing can support me when I've left my center. Every thing and everyone is my teacher. Every encounter is perfectly reciprocal. When I lose connection with me I lose connection with you, I feel as if you have left me. But I have left me. When I am  Being You are able to meet me I am able to meet you We are One. The ego is terrified of abandonment, of shortage,  of  our True Nature. It contracts, it runs, it thinks, it calculates, it worries, it accuses, it blames it attacks, it is a black hole that sucks........ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Ego thinks, Source Acts ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Support is felt when we  know  ourselves as Source And when we know  everyone  and everything as Source. There is nothing t...

Recently I was at an Ecstatic Dance--something I participate in several times a week. I am really interested in, and attuned to how I connect with others in this dance practice. This includes how I connect with others, how others connect with me, how we connect in small groups, and how we connect together in and as the entire room. I am well practiced and quite skilled at connecting with others through attunement, resonance, and by inviting them to feel safe, seen, and appreciated; essentially in welcoming them to play and explore with me. Last Sunday I found myself in a dance with a man that I have partnered with a few times before. I'll call him Robert. As I was completing with another dance partner, I turned and found Robert right in front of me. I made lingering eye contact with him, signaling an openness to connect and dance with him. I could see that he registered this communication, and we began to attune to each other by responding to each other's dance mov...

He arrives each week at my front door panting and exhausted after climbing 3 flights of steps. He looks spent. Once again, he's driven through rush hour traffic on a Tuesday night for this event. He drops his bags and shoes just inside the door and as I hug him, he slumps in my arms, giving his weight and receiving my support unabashedly. He walks to the living room floor and carefully lowers himself to his hands and knees, then collapses on his back with a loud”Ahhhhhhhh”, that conveys, “I can let go now.” He is comfortable here and feels at home. I know he's fine just being still there, as I finish up the dinner preparations.  When I'm ready, I enter the living room and slowly approach him. I give myself to him physically, cautiously, sensing for what his body and soul wants and needs. He receives my body, and the spirit with which I offer it gratefully and with obvious pleasure. I begin to take him for a ride, a BodyRide , and we move together as one body, slo...

It's....almost erotic when our awareness becomes center of everything So, what can we experience in this amazingly beautiful, transformative merging, meeting, becoming-one-with space? Duality, and the social dynamic of me or them, transforms into the oneness of 'us', or just 'this' (this moment, this vibration, this sensation). It's similar to the dynamic of 'falling in love' where we initially allow ourselves to focus, embrace and birth the vibration of love simultaneously, and without fear. We open up and experience love as an energy. We use the 'other' as the object of our love, but actually what is happening is that we are vibrating love  with full harmony and resonance, while 'taking in' , or 'being with'...anything, it can be another person, a sunset, an event. At that moment we aren't loving 'it', we are loving , or rather, we are the energy of love , and we are vibrating love as we allow ourselves to i...

In order to be an irresistible dance partner you’ve got to be willing to be the center of the universe. You’ve got to be willing to be the center of the universe, and say “Yes. Say “yes” to yourself, say “yes” to life, say “yes” to joy and pleasure and delight. You’ve got to celebrate yourself. Know that the whole world is celebrating with you whether they actually know it or not. Sometimes you can catch their eye and they’ll go, “Oho, yes! I am part of your party for sure!” Sometimes they won’t, but there’s a whole room full of people and there’s you, dancing with yourself, having the best dance in the room. The best dance there is, is those ecstatic connections, and dancing your life. And Inviting others to share your delight, your joy, your intensity, your love, your spontaneity, your energy. Knowing you’re it, you ARE life; life connecting with life, life communicatin...

I anticipate a good time, I anticipate connection, I anticipate well-being before I even head to where I’m going dancing. I bring myself with my heart flowing and open and then I arrive. I arrive and let my focus and my attention be inside in my body, in my sensational world. And I begin to move just how I feel, often with my eyes closed, just savoring being an alive, mobile human. Being and savoring being in the ecstasy of being alive, being in a body, being a body-- With all that’s available to me: sounds smells pressure Breath. I luscious myself up for a while and continue to sense deeper and deeper. It’s like sparking my own fire. And fanning, and feeling I am here! Then I’ve got to rise up, and look around, (still from this very embodied place). But now I'm eager to be available, to be accessible. I'm eager to be influenced. ...

Ecstatic Dance in 9 Chapters 1) So I danced tonight with medicine I'm still a little high Still in my right brain Still in Hang--- Taking time to integrate, and Celebrate Now. I noticed: My first touch received, “don't press, don't press.” My last touch received “don't squeeze my neck that way.” Unfazed and going for what I want Everything in Between was extraordinary. I listened. With confidence. My responses were radically Receptive Radically Supportive. 'G' was undone He wanted to ravish me. 'C' exploded in the halo of my attention, my relating. 'L' popped in delight by my audacious innocence. Be solid. Then I can find you. Then you can have me. My touch penetrates to your core if you have one if you'll be there if you'll let me, There is nothing more delicious. 2) I noticed: That when I own my dance Y...